Tag Archive: anxiety

“Now my soul is troubled, and what shall I say? ‘Father, save me from this hour’? No, it was for this very reason I came to this hour.

John 12:27 (NIV)

So often I think that what we know and what we feel are at war with one another. Even though I know that God is always with me and I know that He works out all things to the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose, I still struggle with anxiety. I can read verse after verse about anxiety in the Bible and yet I’m still plagued by it in dizzying doses. I have briefly written about the life-long sleep disorder that God delivered me from in this last year. When I had that issue I took medication for it. Specifically, I took Clonazepam, a drug that is often used to treat anxiety. In the 20+ years that I took that drug, I had so many problems with doctors who didn’t understand my sleep disorder and thought that I took the medication because of anxiety.

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In the storm that rages all around,
I am, the figure standing tall.
I am, not swept away by squalls.
My feet are firmly planted,
the roots run to the core.
I will not topple,
though some do not see,
they cannot see,
the flash of light,
and for a moment,
they do.

fear begets anger,
uncertainty morphs perception
becoming certain, acting
on rage, blinded-
there is no light,
only grasping hands
clinging to spirits
wounded, afraid-
acting out.


Holding these cares close,
raising my hands, cupped, released.
Heaven bound, weightless…