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The Road

My intentions,
are good-
aren’t they?
My Agenda,
what I want?
From you?
Me?
I don’t know.
but, my intentions,
are good-
That’s right.
But,
You have your,
Agenda,
your,
intentions, too.

Lament


I walk,
in faith,
pray,
in faith,
deny
myself,
in faith.

In faith,
I lie me down,
screaming,
I awake,
in faith,
limbs
torn-
all,
in faith.

Standing-
empty handed-
filled,
with faith.

Why,
must
I suffer?

Struck-
by faith.

I (suffered.)
I (died.)

And you,
you,
want to be,
like
Me?

Stumbling

reaching
eyes closed
stumbling over
your unbelief
Falling again.

crying
lips quiver
silently
stumbling over
your unbelief.

Falling again.
Failing again.
crying again
sighing again.

dying

Again.
Lifting you
Loving you
Holding you.

He smiles.

Your smile
when I smile at you.
Are those barred fangs,
or is that a smile for me?

The fire in your eyes,
is it meant to provide warmth
or will its searing blaze
consume me?

The morning sigh
when I kiss you
and say goodbye.
Is that relief I hear in your sigh?

Tell me;
are we a couple,
or just a couple of people?

Am I still the one you couldn’t live without
or the one you can barely live with?
Do you really love me-
or is that a triggered response?

I really wanna know.
I truly need to know,
the flowers you bring
the black you wear,
that this is you
being you,
and I.
A coffin not to bear.