Tag Archive: Loss


Maria

I waited for you.
twin birds nestled in my hair,
leaves turned,
I waited.

Decorated
I was,
in my white blanket.
Icicles hanging,
diamonds,
waiting.

The birds became many
and the children played
’round the Maypole.

The wind
howled for you.
The Moon and I,
we became
great friends.

And I waited.
The burning stars,
ever my companions.
Whispering.

Still,
I waited.

The light grew longer,
the children taller,
and
eventually,
I faded.

Your face,
I still see.
Your smile,
laughter,
the way you
caressed, my hair. I still, hear you
whistling, that stupid little tune.

Whistle again,
for me,
that sweet, little tune.

Touch me, that way, again.
Look into my eyes,
tell me, tell me
that you love me-
we’ll always be together.
Tell me, lies.

The truth,
hurts. I am,
a coward,
without you.

Come back.
I have, searched
here,
there.
Only, in my theater,
do the plays still run.

Forgetting-
Your face,
your smell.
Touching,
holding,
and
understanding, me.
Crying with me,
raging, at the world.
Fading.

I still rage, cry
and hurt, pointing fingers
at everyone, but myself.
You were my scale,
My balance.
Sanity, keeping,
the wolves
at
bay.
You have,
faded…

Why, did I set you free?
Why did I run, away from you?
I ran,
too far.

Your tightly
woven
web
falls
away,
with the
caress,
of my hand.
Mistress,
of deception,
master thespian,
weaver, of pain-
sorrow.
you stand,
amongst the dying,
cigarette, in hand,
smirk, on your face-
sigh,
and complain,
about the smell.

Today,
woke up, smiling.
Certain,
that you understood,
turning
your face, away-
perhaps, you
don’t.