Tag Archive: Angst


Maria

I waited for you.
twin birds nestled in my hair,
leaves turned,
I waited.

Decorated
I was,
in my white blanket.
Icicles hanging,
diamonds,
waiting.

The birds became many
and the children played
’round the Maypole.

The wind
howled for you.
The Moon and I,
we became
great friends.

And I waited.
The burning stars,
ever my companions.
Whispering.

Still,
I waited.

The light grew longer,
the children taller,
and
eventually,
I faded.

wide eyed and bushy tailed,
once upon a time.

The hills became higher,
mountains.

free
climbing
now.
Every
hand hold,
along 
     the 
        way-
A betrayal
of the deepest
of me.

selfish lovers
with your
stabbing knives and steely grins.
haunting.

I challenge you.

Be
gone.
With your
“tomorrows” that never come,
promises that
never were.

You-
with your
words-
Platitudes-
Thieves of my heart.

Unworthy of the love,
I freely gave,
of me,
I freely gave,
freely-
blindly-
gave.

“More! More!”
you cry.
poured out,
an offering.
My sea, to your-
droplets.

Transition.

I.
defy.
you.

Basking,
with a true
lover.

These feelings,
swelling, growing,
deep,
inside me.
resentment,
anger,
loss,
jealousy.

Know it,
I do not,
feel it,
absolutely.
Question it?
Certainly.

When,
I ask,
does it
shift
from love,
into uncertainty
of love?

When,
does disrespect,
warrant,
resentment?
Is it jealousy,
or my reaction,
to a lack of respect?

Are these feelings
ever warranted?

I sit,
think,
and,
as always,
question.